part-broken, part-whole
Putting a sieve to my heart.
part-broken, part-whole
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If anyone needs me, I’ll be making a fool of myself
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Hey girl.
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Exception.
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Look up. You might find this.
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Why I love… Jonathon Carroll
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How not to resist a book.
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It looks like blue but it’s not blue, it’s called indigo. Or Neel. Like Krishna.
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Just a door and some window.
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I don’t know what else to do, so I am turning you into a poem
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There is a shamelessness to red that hangs unapologetically facing the sun, demanding its heat.
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My five o’clock
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Celestial
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"Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it. We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death. We misconstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks. We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock. We do not expect the shock to be obliterative, dislocating to both body and mind. We might expect that we will be prostrate, inconsolable, crazy with loss. We do not expect to be literally crazy, cool customers who believe that their husband is about to return and need his shoes. In the version of grief we imagine, the model will be “healing.” A certain forward movement will prevail. The worst days will be the earliest days. We imagine that the moment to most severely test us will be the funeral, after which this hypothetical healing will take place. When we anticipate the funeral we wonder about failing to “get through it,” rise to the occasion, exhibit the “strength” that invariably gets mentioned as the correct response to death. We anticipate needing to steel ourselves the for the moment: will I be able to greet people, will I be able to leave the scene, will I be able even to get dressed that day? We have no way of knowing that this will not be the issue. We have no way of knowing that the funeral itself will be anodyne, a kind of narcotic regression in which we are wrapped in the care of others and the gravity and meaning of the occasion. Nor can we know ahead of the fact (and here lies the heart of the difference between grief as we imagine it and grief as it is) the unending absence that follows, the void, the very opposite of meaning, the relentless succession of moments during which we will confront the experience of meaninglessness itself."

Joan Didion

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Sometimes it’s makeup. Sometimes it’s not.
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Ladiss and Gants.